Tag Archives: expression

Just Saying.


It’s good to question and ask the few,

Each word you use, reflects your thoughts,

What wisdom you draw, sends hints of your kingdom,

You express and demand, no answer will you command,

Human nature isn’t a game, human minds aren’t your fame,

Stay close and watch, no peace on earth.

Just gravity and fragility, just saying you are not smart.

By Julius Fa

©2020

Just Saying

My Becoming – My Right To Choose.


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I’ll take that door, before it’s late,
I made the choice, no room for nice,
To walk straight through, regret won’t hold,
My fearless fate, tested by hate.

You see the door, but can’t go on,
Because of fear, or lack of care,
The mass will frown, the bold went cold,
It’s just a step, to dreams untold.

I see the room, it’s bright with air,
The steps of four, I count ahead,
The walls of cream, could be my dream,
It’s filled with love, was that a dove?

But here and now, this beach I found,
The sight of night, the waves rush near,
The sun soon set, my stars burn bright,
What shall I do, to wait or go?

You see the door, before me stand,
You wonder why, it’s here for me,
Am no angel, just man inside,
I draw much closer, no choice is made.

By Julius Fa
©2015

The Voice Within Won’t Win.


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Can you hear me, my mind ask,
They don’t care about you, the noise inside screams,
My eyes searches for contact, or my missing sanity,
You need me, this demon controls my fears.

I feel trapped, inside myself,
Breaking out, an option now expired,
They won’t stop, the crowd walks on by,
Beneath their pace, I stop and bend.

No one saw the fall, strangers ignored my call,
The few turned in disgust, the many dared not stop,
My head knocked against the floor, the bang too intense to raw,
My rage grows with every breathe, denied by my sunken will.

My back feels cold, these pavements consume my soul,
Why don’t they help, a plague on these soul-less fouls,
My mind draws a smile, this battle I cannot win,
I close my eye, still to awake from this dream.

It took a scream, to crush this mind,
I committed one crime, to silence my fear,
Call it murder, I do not care,
My lungs burn with fury, my voice yells down my confusion.

By Julius Fa
© 2015

Your Bully.


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I am a bully, that face I wear,
It’s not so silly, prepare to hear,
I wear no label, just guns in cable,
I’ll tweet your case, to other’s dismay.

I have my terms, deep down am dump,
No school can teach, what fools won’t eat,
I fight with hands, my rage in cage,
You hate my fate, I hate your fakes.

Prepare to pay, my fee with cake,
I take no break, collecting my make,
You work for me, you turn and smile,
Your brain won’t ask, for truth can’t dance.

I seek man’s glory, denied heaven’s story,
Am from the streets, you sleep in heat,
I have no rules, just stones and tools,
I am your story, deep down your glory.

By Julius Fa
©2015

I Want To Write.


I want to write, but what about?
A life well lived, or one well tamed,
I walk about, in search of facts,
To write about, I have no doubts.

Begin to see, prepare to smile,
I have a way, to feel this place,
It’s wise to say, I stayed away,
But not by choice, just thought and Joyce.

It rained today, my mind gone wet,
The sound of wind, inside am clean,
I cross the path, between our worlds,
Was pain so cold, was doubt my own.

On I match, about this town,
Plain and simply, I once use to say,
A run well done, a fight well won,
I want to write, but time isn’t right.

By Julius Fa
© 2014

You Can Save Me!


I feel so sad, I want to cry,
I look inside and wonder why,
I’m filled with guilt, I want no lilt,
I try to run, away from life.

I run so hard, I see no path,
I need a bath, but wait till last,
This self I hate, this face I fake,
I’ll cut my flesh, to end my stress.

I trip and fall, my legs are gashed,
I ripped my skin, the pain sinks in,
It feels so good, I know not why,
I want much more, to end my all.

You try to help, I scream and belt,
You fall aside, I’m sick inside,
Just leave me be, your face will see,
My shame and horror, my life of sorrow.

By Julius Fa
© 2012

Tears For Love.


It’s not like me, to feel this way,
I paid the price, you tore my skies,
The years we dined, were fine and last,
But fate took flight and out you went.

I waited long, for you to phone,
The days were rough, my nights were tough,
My heart was stilled, too slow to heal,
I could not feel, for love was killed.

I blame you not, was all I thought,
You see my friends, I must defend,
She was my all, with her am tall,
It felt so right, she is my light.

I cried this day, for you once more,
The pain that grew, with winds that blew,
My tears shall fall, my heart will fear,
But that’s the path, to heal my past.

I wont let go, my hope in her,
I sit and wait, this phone my bait,
Just call and speak, her voice to me,
I’m weak inside, I can’t move on.

By Julius Fa
© 2012

You Made Me!


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You do not care, you throw your stares,
I’m just a case, you tend to share,
My life you plate, yours friends to dish,
I am a toy, you think to deploy.

You made me cry, to show you can,
You knock me down and tried to drown,
You stuck a knife, into my back,
Your friends laughed on, it seems am dumb.

You picked on me, because am different,
I don’t fit in, am far from norm,
You spit with hate, my face you maze,
My sight is dimmed, my heart implore.

It wasn’t long, before I snapped,
Your hate destroyed, the guy I was,
Now dark my tears, with blood mixed in,
You created me, now face my wrath.

I lost my cool and plot with easy,
A bomb to blow, you up in trees,
I hate myself and hate you more,
You should have left, me by myself.

By Julius Fa
© 2012

The Cost Of Bliss.


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I’m not the same and not that lame,
It was my fault, I hate adults,
You tore my heart, because I doubt,
This love you teach, is out my reach.

I tried to settle, before the petal,
Declare the spring, I long to bring,
Was love so great, it lacked the taste,
Of sweet delight, I am not bright.

I gave my heart, she did her part,
We walked for miles, inside we smiled,
The world around, amass by sound,
I did not see, you let me down.

I cried for weeks, till tears grow weak,
I hurt and tried, denied but why,
I sort no ill, just strength to peel,
You from my heart, because you depart.

The phones were silence, the air so violent,
I wished to heal, I know you feel,
I crushed this us, because of dust,
I am to blame, we’re not the same.

Look deep and read, my words will speak,
The truth is bold, i write with cold,
Reverse the old and free my soul,
To love is risk, it is such bliss.

By Julius Fa
© 2012

Forgive Me.


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I have a song, I’d like to share,
About a girl, I use to care,
We built our lives, for three long years,
But failed to bridge, the gap between.

I loved her so, but couldn’t complete,
The bond of two, in one with peace,
She grew too quick, to love my wit,
I paced the beat, within my heart.

I cared too much, what dad would say,
If home I brought, this part of me,
She too couldn’t bear, her folks to see,
This guy she found, new strength and being.

We talked so much, about life’s stuff,
We’re good together, inside your feathers,
You shared your son, with me his fun,
I saw the family, I long for sanity.

But deep within, you saw my sin,
The world around, as cut me down,
I’m not myself, I shall not love,
You tried to change, my nature in vain.

It was a day, much like this rain,
I cut away, from you like stain,
You cried no doubt, my heart went south,
My smile is gone, you was the one.

By Julius Fa
© 2012