103. True Cost.

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I’m tired of hearing, tired of fearing ,
Tired of trying and hearing you lying,
Can’t take the fakeness, no sign of weakness,
Just plain pretending, love so demanding

Shame on your venting, seem so relenting,
Gave all I held dear, to see you bail here,
So bitter and wanting, our lives denying,
The light before me, this darkness is passing.

Embrace the future, rewrite the new me,
You out and far gone, no more of us now,
Enjoying the new me, make up of old Lee,
Worn out by love, mind numb like doves.

So here I pledge me, to build a new self,
More time to know me, investing beyond free,
Can’t fake the here now, inside I know fear,
Life takes my all dear, to end our love here.

By Julius Fa
©May2023

86. All I See.

All I see, is beauty within you,
All I see, is love in your eyes,
The world around, is gentle and silent,
All because, your light never fades.

Hope is gone, but you are still waiting,
Never far, a whisper between us,
Sitting close, with comfort and joy,
Shining brightly, your radiant and glory.

I’m confused, much fear within me,
Simply cause, your here with me,
In my heart, a candle now flickers,
Lit for you, my glimmer of hope.

Tears of joy, fall slowly and justly,
Intertwined, our hands lock tightly,
Now we’re one, no danger can harm us,
Safe in you, my angel of beauty.

Don’t excuse, this moment so simple,
Don’t refuse, the years before us,
All I see, is you beside me,
Now I see, the you in me.

By Julius Fa,
©April2023

Wonderful News!

It’s just the news, we yearned to hear,

A big bright day, no rain in sight,

The singing birds, what joy to listen,

The simple new, gives life its meaning.
We toast that news, with friends around us,

Delight we felt, then tales enlightened us,

Sweet smell of summer, the sun above us,

It’s heat sinks deep, this news fills us.
I wish them well, they leave before dawn,

We’ll meet again, a promise to save us,

A tear or two, love dwells within us,

Goodnight and good luck, their news still freed us.
By Julius Fa,

©2016

Young Night.

The day was long, or so it seemed, away from her, my mind sinks fast,
I try to find, the ground beneath,
My head now spins, the weight increase.

I take a walk, away from sin,
To find the space, to breath real air,
Find peace and win, the self within,
My friends don’t leave, I’ve just begin.

Take aim and feel, the calm around,
Fresh flowers won’t tower, their tales will sing,
Big bees and wing, my skin relieved,
Goodnight this day, my love is in.

By Julius Fa,
©2014

The Man.

I love that man, it’s written in sands,
Above the fear, beyond the tears,
I saw him dream, it was not clean,
His heart in sin, he sits and sings.

With time in hands, built on lands,
Past the sea, scared to breathe,
See him smile, watch him glance,
Life is free, to him it’s real.

Heart now stone, face gone cold,
Fists now blows, blood now flows,
Victory will come, beaten with tongues,
Written in sand, bless this man.

By Julius Fa
©2013

The Dreams We Lock Inside!

He locked away, his dreams to play, Before a crowd, his songs were loud, He felt the doubt, that some did sprout, He must believe, be bold and risk.

You Can Save Me!

I feel so sad, I want to cry,
I look inside and wonder why,
I’m filled with guilt, I want no lilt,
I try to run, away from life.

I run so hard, I see no path,
I need a bath, but wait till last,
This self I hate, this face I fake,
I’ll cut my flesh, to end my stress.

I trip and fall, my legs are gashed,
I ripped my skin, the pain sinks in,
It feels so good, I know not why,
I want much more, to end my all.

You try to help, I scream and belt,
You fall aside, I’m sick inside,
Just leave me be, your face will see,
My shame and horror, my life of sorrow.

By Julius Fa
© 2012

Tears For Love.

It’s not like me, to feel this way,
I paid the price, you tore my skies,
The years we dined, were fine and last,
But fate took flight and out you went.

I waited long, for you to phone,
The days were rough, my nights were tough,
My heart was stilled, too slow to heal,
I could not feel, for love was killed.

I blame you not, was all I thought,
You see my friends, I must defend,
She was my all, with her am tall,
It felt so right, she is my light.

I cried this day, for you once more,
The pain that grew, with winds that blew,
My tears shall fall, my heart will fear,
But that’s the path, to heal my past.

I wont let go, my hope in her,
I sit and wait, this phone my bait,
Just call and speak, her voice to me,
I’m weak inside, I can’t move on.

By Julius Fa
© 2012

You Made Me!

You do not care, you throw your stares,
I’m just a case, you tend to share,
My life you plate, yours friends to dish,
I am a toy, you think to deploy.

You made me cry, to show you can,
You knock me down and tried to drown,
You stuck a knife, into my back,
Your friends laughed on, it seems am dumb.

You picked on me, because am different,
I don’t fit in, am far from norm,
You spit with hate, my face you maze,
My sight is dimmed, my heart implore.

It wasn’t long, before I snapped,
Your hate destroyed, the guy I was,
Now dark my tears, with blood mixed in,
You created me, now face my wrath.

I lost my cool and plot with easy,
A bomb to blow, you up in trees,
I hate myself and hate you more,
You should have left, me by myself.

By Julius Fa
© 2012

The Cost Of Bliss.

I’m not the same and not that lame,
It was my fault, I hate adults,
You tore my heart, because I doubt,
This love you teach, is out my reach.

I tried to settle, before the petal,
Declare the spring, I long to bring,
Was love so great, it lacked the taste,
Of sweet delight, I am not bright.

I gave my heart, she did her part,
We walked for miles, inside we smiled,
The world around, amass by sound,
I did not see, you let me down.

I cried for weeks, till tears grow weak,
I hurt and tried, denied but why,
I sort no ill, just strength to peel,
You from my heart, because you depart.

The phones were silence, the air so violent,
I wished to heal, I know you feel,
I crushed this us, because of dust,
I am to blame, we’re not the same.

Look deep and read, my words will speak,
The truth is bold, i write with cold,
Reverse the old and free my soul,
To love is risk, it is such bliss.

By Julius Fa
© 2012