92. Change The Story.

Waited long, in the rain,
Mind spinning, much like spring,
Hold the tears, no one’s coming,
Chasing reason, not the season.

Heard her story, about the cheating,
Blamed me, cause was sleeping,
Showed no love, we loved in treason,
She sort to live and slept with He Man.

Blame this man, blame all men,
Curse our names, show our veins,
Tell the world, we’re all the same,
Build our crowns, out of thorns.

Didn’t change, how fake you are,
Shame on you, you aren’t no woman,
Play the fool, sin knows you,
So change the story, you aren’t my glory.

By Julius Fa
© April2023

61. The Case.

I’ve seen strange things, above the rim. The world turned black, the air like soot. The ground is red, it burns with flames. The screams are silent, it sounds of thunder. Each house decayed, each grave is saved. Can’t stand up straight, my legs not same. Is this a dream, my mouth spills cream. I look around, each face is clean. No eyes or ears, just mouths that scream. What hell is this? Can’t seem to think. I run so fast, whilst standing still. The way is clear, but dark as sin. I hear dogs bark, behind those bins. My eyes peak round, to see the horror. It ain’t no dog, it fishes with chins. I fall right back, against a pole. I saw a hole, before my toe. I heard a sound, I looked above. I see some kids sat still on wire. I tried to warn them of the danger, my words now loosen. The cream now milk, my lungs fill full. Feels like am drowning, inside myself. No help but them. I spread my hands and start to wave. The crown above, didn’t swap my way. The are so black, can’t see their face. Just two white spots, guess that’s their eyes. I’m sinking fast, beneath this pole. A hole appeared, behind my fear. I can’t survive, the flames now high. The heat like snow, against my skin. I stare at them, that sit above. They seem to look, deep at my soul. So long I jest, within what’s left. It all goes black, no sound or sight.

By Julius Fa

©Feb2023

The Dream Above.

I have this dream, beyond our realm,
It’s full of light, with colours all bright,
It has no sound, and feels all round,
It’s above the skies, no birds or flies.

There is a chair, without a name,
It faces the west, or is it east,
There is no north, and south is gone,
The air is warm, this space so real.

The clouds are huge, vibrant and seen,
They hold no rain, but full of stars,
Each sparkle and shine, each star never dims,
The longer you gaze, the younger you are.

Within this dream, I do not age,
I am fifty-one, outside this realm,
I see this girl, take that seat,
The girl is me, I gazed too long.

By Julius Far
©March 2022

Take The Step.

Take The Step.

Not for me.

It’s not for me, this world called work,
Each day the same, fake smiles the game,
Each hour I seat, life’s joys take flight,
I’m bore of this, mind gone insane.

If this is life, then take my seat,
I won’t return, this desk kills dreams,
No joy in working, just pain and talking,
I’m for the walking, my spirit is docking.

It starts at 5, when bells start ringing,
I take a shower, hot water my healing,
The journey to work, rekindles my youth,
Packed busses with noises, unhappy faces and mobiles.

I need help, the mindset within,
The silence around, hastens my nerves,
The screen is blank, my mood so frank,
I hate this life, it not my own.

By Julius Fa
© 2018

The World Behind.

I’ve lived it once, the voice now said,
It’s in my head, I must be dead,
I know this place, it’s filled with lace,
I’m just a boy, is this my toy?

I start to count, the worlds I see,
It forms a clock, I feel it’s lock,
Around my ribs, it holds me still,
Into the deep , it drowns my head.

I’m torn in two, between these walls,
My clothes are dry, is that a lie?
How can it be? Am puzzle like bees,
This dream so real, I need to heal.

By Julius Fa
©2013

I Want One Wish, Now Grant Me Wings…

You Can Save Me!

I feel so sad, I want to cry,
I look inside and wonder why,
I’m filled with guilt, I want no lilt,
I try to run, away from life.

I run so hard, I see no path,
I need a bath, but wait till last,
This self I hate, this face I fake,
I’ll cut my flesh, to end my stress.

I trip and fall, my legs are gashed,
I ripped my skin, the pain sinks in,
It feels so good, I know not why,
I want much more, to end my all.

You try to help, I scream and belt,
You fall aside, I’m sick inside,
Just leave me be, your face will see,
My shame and horror, my life of sorrow.

By Julius Fa
© 2012

Tears For Love.

It’s not like me, to feel this way,
I paid the price, you tore my skies,
The years we dined, were fine and last,
But fate took flight and out you went.

I waited long, for you to phone,
The days were rough, my nights were tough,
My heart was stilled, too slow to heal,
I could not feel, for love was killed.

I blame you not, was all I thought,
You see my friends, I must defend,
She was my all, with her am tall,
It felt so right, she is my light.

I cried this day, for you once more,
The pain that grew, with winds that blew,
My tears shall fall, my heart will fear,
But that’s the path, to heal my past.

I wont let go, my hope in her,
I sit and wait, this phone my bait,
Just call and speak, her voice to me,
I’m weak inside, I can’t move on.

By Julius Fa
© 2012

You Made Me!

You do not care, you throw your stares,
I’m just a case, you tend to share,
My life you plate, yours friends to dish,
I am a toy, you think to deploy.

You made me cry, to show you can,
You knock me down and tried to drown,
You stuck a knife, into my back,
Your friends laughed on, it seems am dumb.

You picked on me, because am different,
I don’t fit in, am far from norm,
You spit with hate, my face you maze,
My sight is dimmed, my heart implore.

It wasn’t long, before I snapped,
Your hate destroyed, the guy I was,
Now dark my tears, with blood mixed in,
You created me, now face my wrath.

I lost my cool and plot with easy,
A bomb to blow, you up in trees,
I hate myself and hate you more,
You should have left, me by myself.

By Julius Fa
© 2012