109. Speak Or Reach

Speak to me, just reach out,
Face the truth, hope gives out,
Life and me, can’t be friends,
Keep it real, love could end.

Blame the game, save the world,
Hold on tight, with your might,
Steal more time, not for dimes,
Fan the flames, brave the race.

You still live, there’s no trust,
Reached the peak, of this speech,
Sitting here, looking out,
Grace so free, all can’t see.

Pulled a wish, out the air,
Couldn’t think, what was fair,
Wanted more, greed in fear,
But with love, we can heal.

So to ask, you this day,
Make a choice, flight or fight,
Yin and Yang, feel the call,
Do you reach? Or just speak on?

By Julius Fa
© March2024

32. Conference With Grace

What a joy, I’m here with her. She works the room, like a pro. She knows her stuff, this is her turf. I picked her suit, short and smooth. She loves to tease, the kid in me. We dash about and mingle all day, she keeps me close and on my toes. I love the way, her eye’s on me. I start to play, fun games with her. I moved away and stayed with Ray. She followed swiftly, mouthing “I’ll kill you sweetly.” With a kiss, my thoughts now miss. The group discussion before me, I let Ray answer. Watching her makes me happy, knowing her turns me jolly. She catches up and robs against me. Her heavenly scent, unravels the group. Our touching bodies, unravels my senses. The joy she brings, she’s naughty as sin. The group disperses, she smiles at me. I pulled her hair, I think it’s fair. She digs her nails, softly at my back. We laugh it off, she pulls me close. I tickled her side, holding her hands. She enjoys the capture, am I her rapture. She’s inches away, still acting the pro. I called for rescue, “Ray save me from Grace.” He fled to the bar, she smiled with her eyes.

By Julius Fa

©Dec2022

16. Hope My Voice

I hope you hear, I hope you see. I hope away, the time I waste. I hope we’re friends, I hope you stop. I hope to be the hug you need. I hope you laugh, I hope you heal. I hope this day, will brighten you mood. I hope you eat, I hope you’ll drink. I hope you mend and change your end. I hope you talk, I hope you walk. I hope together, we’ll change the race. I hope to seek, I hope to be. I hope my voice, is enough for you. I hope to hope and filled with love. It’s safer to say, I hope for change.

By Julius Fa

©Dec2022

Daughter’s request of a father.

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My time to ask.

It’s time to ask, this dad of mine,

To set it straight, my wounds to heal,

What truly happened, to mum that Summer,

To walk away, from us her family.

For twenty long years, my life on hold,

Seeking answers to questions, to one dare ask,

Dad raised a family, my brothers and I,

Never wanting to say it, her name that is.

I’ve heard his tears, and seen his scars,

Each night he broke, his heart couldn’t sleep,

He wore a smile, to show he’s brave,

He worked two jobs, to keep us safe.

Each birthday a cake, each milestone was bliss,

Never hurting to show, the love he gave freely,

He wanted us whole, never lacking a mother,

He raised two soldiers, and I a nurse.

It was this Easter, within this pandemic,

I braved the cold, he’s now so old,

What truly happened? That made her leave?

He looked at me, and said “she’s still here.”

by Julius Fa

©2021

You Can Save Me!

I feel so sad, I want to cry,
I look inside and wonder why,
I’m filled with guilt, I want no lilt,
I try to run, away from life.

I run so hard, I see no path,
I need a bath, but wait till last,
This self I hate, this face I fake,
I’ll cut my flesh, to end my stress.

I trip and fall, my legs are gashed,
I ripped my skin, the pain sinks in,
It feels so good, I know not why,
I want much more, to end my all.

You try to help, I scream and belt,
You fall aside, I’m sick inside,
Just leave me be, your face will see,
My shame and horror, my life of sorrow.

By Julius Fa
© 2012

Tears For Love.

It’s not like me, to feel this way,
I paid the price, you tore my skies,
The years we dined, were fine and last,
But fate took flight and out you went.

I waited long, for you to phone,
The days were rough, my nights were tough,
My heart was stilled, too slow to heal,
I could not feel, for love was killed.

I blame you not, was all I thought,
You see my friends, I must defend,
She was my all, with her am tall,
It felt so right, she is my light.

I cried this day, for you once more,
The pain that grew, with winds that blew,
My tears shall fall, my heart will fear,
But that’s the path, to heal my past.

I wont let go, my hope in her,
I sit and wait, this phone my bait,
Just call and speak, her voice to me,
I’m weak inside, I can’t move on.

By Julius Fa
© 2012

You Made Me!

You do not care, you throw your stares,
I’m just a case, you tend to share,
My life you plate, yours friends to dish,
I am a toy, you think to deploy.

You made me cry, to show you can,
You knock me down and tried to drown,
You stuck a knife, into my back,
Your friends laughed on, it seems am dumb.

You picked on me, because am different,
I don’t fit in, am far from norm,
You spit with hate, my face you maze,
My sight is dimmed, my heart implore.

It wasn’t long, before I snapped,
Your hate destroyed, the guy I was,
Now dark my tears, with blood mixed in,
You created me, now face my wrath.

I lost my cool and plot with easy,
A bomb to blow, you up in trees,
I hate myself and hate you more,
You should have left, me by myself.

By Julius Fa
© 2012

The Cost Of Bliss.

I’m not the same and not that lame,
It was my fault, I hate adults,
You tore my heart, because I doubt,
This love you teach, is out my reach.

I tried to settle, before the petal,
Declare the spring, I long to bring,
Was love so great, it lacked the taste,
Of sweet delight, I am not bright.

I gave my heart, she did her part,
We walked for miles, inside we smiled,
The world around, amass by sound,
I did not see, you let me down.

I cried for weeks, till tears grow weak,
I hurt and tried, denied but why,
I sort no ill, just strength to peel,
You from my heart, because you depart.

The phones were silence, the air so violent,
I wished to heal, I know you feel,
I crushed this us, because of dust,
I am to blame, we’re not the same.

Look deep and read, my words will speak,
The truth is bold, i write with cold,
Reverse the old and free my soul,
To love is risk, it is such bliss.

By Julius Fa
© 2012

Forgive Me.

I have a song, I’d like to share,
About a girl, I use to care,
We built our lives, for three long years,
But failed to bridge, the gap between.

I loved her so, but couldn’t complete,
The bond of two, in one with peace,
She grew too quick, to love my wit,
I paced the beat, within my heart.

I cared too much, what dad would say,
If home I brought, this part of me,
She too couldn’t bear, her folks to see,
This guy she found, new strength and being.

We talked so much, about life’s stuff,
We’re good together, inside your feathers,
You shared your son, with me his fun,
I saw the family, I long for sanity.

But deep within, you saw my sin,
The world around, as cut me down,
I’m not myself, I shall not love,
You tried to change, my nature in vain.

It was a day, much like this rain,
I cut away, from you like stain,
You cried no doubt, my heart went south,
My smile is gone, you was the one.

By Julius Fa
© 2012

What I’m Made Off!

I’m made of steel, that will not rust,
It’s full of strength, that’s meant for lent,
My knees wont bow, to those that growl,
My heart is hard, because I’m strong.

I have in mind, the sights you send,
Your talk is cheap, your tongue will keep,
The lies you mix, beneath your feet,
I see the fake, you think is real.

I hate to wait, I am no bait,
I’ll start the fight, you turn and run,
The streets my code, the cops my foes,
The light they beamed, to curb our sins.

This night is young, with tales of fun,
It holds its own, without a phone,
To seal the deal, they beat our heels,
I knee in pain, I am insane!

By Julius Fa
© 2012